My brother and I grew up listening to Creedence Clearwater. My dad was a huge fan. Anytime we hear a CCR tune we are triggered to reflect on fond memories of my dad. Hey Tonight and Have You Ever Seen The Rain in particular are two songs that definitely have my dads name all over them.
I heard this particular song the other day. Like always I thought of my dad. It’s a really beautiful song. I also found myself reflecting on fond memories but I also pondered the current events happening in this country right now as I listened to the lyrics. In my opinion, we are all on a journey. Some of us our drifters, adventurers or if you’re like me a free spirit. Some of us are trying to find our way in all of this darkness. The good news is there are so many light workers out there spreading that light in all of this darkness helping those lost souls find our way home.
I’m sharing my thoughts and this song as a reminder that we all have to shine our light as bright as possible. In doing so, together we can create a light so bright we will help those who are struggling find their way home.
There are two meanings of this song found on Wikipedia.
John Fogerty biographer Thomas M. Kitts describes the song as depicting a “world-weary figure,” perhaps Jeremiah, who “undertakes an uncertain journey.” The singer is confident as long as he “can see the light.” Kitts points out that the word light has two meanings in the song, a spiritual meaning, such as in “The Lord is my light” from Psalm 27, and “the secular light of love.” Kitts describes the music as having a “hymnal, church-like feel.”
John Fogerty expressed surprise in his coming up with a candle as a metaphor for a beacon guiding the singer home. He stated that the song is “about the loner in me. Wanting to feel understood, needing those at home to shine a light so that I can make my way back.”
Choose the meaning that resonates with you and just for today be a beacon of light and together we will guide this country home. As for me, I will light a candle in honor of my dad. He is no longer with me but who knows maybe he will see the light. I miss him every day.
Today is Cinco de Mayo. A celebration for many latin americans. It also happens to be my parent’s anniversary. My mother and father were married on May 5th over 50 years ago. It still behooves me to this day how my father talked my mother in to marrying him. She was nothing like him at all. Unfortunately, my father passed away five years ago. While this is a day of celebration, it is also a reminder that my father is no longer with us.
I have only shared a few things about my father on my blog. He was the coolest man I’ve ever met. He was tough, determined and never gave up a fight, especially if it came to principle. My father was strong in his opinions and never backed down. He always fought for what he believed in. The strength and determination I have become known for to endure any challenge that comes my way is an attribute I learned from my father. He was my hero and my best friend.
My father grew up in Texas. He grew up poor but worked hard to build a profitable company that he referred to as his “empire”. He was tough and he was fearless but he had a very giving heart. My father was the only man I knew that drove around in a Chevy pick up (he wasn’t a fan of Ford) with a machete in the back seat and a 45 in his glove box but cried every time he watched Steel Magnolias. He had a crush on Julia Roberts. He was charismatic and had a wonderful sense of humor. My father could turn a robbery in to a story that was so funny you’d need kleenex to wipe the tears from laughing so hard. In fact he was at the local bank once when it got robbed. He was the only person not shaken by the experience. After the robber left, my father ran across the street to the bakery to buy himself a donut and returned just in time to be interviewed by the local TV Station. He was a riot and a cool cat!
I was in my car yesterday listening to the radio station on Sirius and Creedence Clearwater came on. He was belting out “Hey Tonight” which happened to be one of my father’s favorite songs. I was a little teary eyed but as I listened to the song I remembered a story my dad shared of a time he took my mother on a road trip. It was in the summer and my father decided to roll out his convertible corvette and drive to Bellingham, Washington which was over 5 hours away. He drove off that hot summer day with the top down and my 5’2″ mother sitting in the passenger seat with her freshly permed hair. They drove off that day with my crazy dad behind the wheel. My father shared how my mother’s perm was flapping in the wind as she was dodging the bugs attacking her face. My mother was convinced she was being attacked by horseflies. She was not a happy passenger!! To add insult to the injury, my father had his Creedence Clearwater cassette blasting as he listened to “Hey Tonight” repeatedly the entire trip to Bellingham. My mother begged him to stop playing that song but daddy refused!! By the time they arrived, my mother was a disheveled mess! According to my father, mother had birds in her hair building nests and she was so furious she demanded a DIVORCE! This didn’t faze my father at all. In fact, he booked a room at a trashy hotel and called it a day!! He just thought it was funny.
I’m happy to report, my mother forgave my father and she didn’t divorce him that day. She was by his side the day he took his last breath. I will never forget what my father did right before he passed away. He kissed my mother and as she stood up he picked himself up and said “I Love You!” He was gone only a few minutes later. That moment still brings tears to my eyes.
I called up my mother today to wish her a Happy Anniversary. I know that my mother still misses that crazy character she called her husband for over 50 years. She said “I don’t have anyone to share my anniversary with” I began to tell my mother funny stories about my father and before I knew it, Cinco De Mayo was a happy day for my mother again.
In honor of my parents and their anniversary today, I am posting this youtube video of Creedence Clearwater belting out my father’s favorite tune!!! Happy Anniversary Mom & Dad!! We love and miss you every day and despite your craziness Mother misses you too!!!