Happy Anniversary To Me 4-20-20

Today is my sixth month anniversary. Six months ago, I was on my walk. It was Sunday. I was praying that day asking god to intercede in my life and help me to land on my feet again spiritually, emotionally and physically. I was so tired of the anxiety, depression, PTSD, a negative mindset as well as the constant fear and worry that had taken control of my life.

This coming May will be five years that I returned from San Francisco. I’m embarrassed to admit that I’ve isolated myself in my room ever since. Life happens sometimes. Challenges arise, traumatic experiences happen. Health problems, relationship problems, job loss, finances…..Life as we knew it can change in a New York minute.

That Sunday, I made the decision to take my life back. I won’t bore you with the details. Some things are just meant to stay private. However, I will share I have been working diligently to take control of my mind, body and soul and spirit everyday. The result….I’m happy again. I love life again….and I’m grateful. I have a whole new perspective. I see the blessings in all things even at a time when we are all forced to be in isolation. I’m learning every day to create a better me. You too can create a better you the minute you decide to take control of your life. Good times will happen as will bad. Happy times will happen as will sad. It’s how we choose to react to every situation. Personally, I chose to react poorly.

Six months ago, I chose peace, love, serenity, joy, health, family, but more importantly life! I choose to live my life in a state of gratitude opposed to depression. It’s been six months ago today that I prayed asking God for help. He heard me that day because today is my anniversary and every day I find myself looking forward to the day as well as what the future will be that is right in front me. With any luck, the light that shines in my life will exude and shine brightly on those I encounter everyday. Life is good! It always was. I just failed to recognize it.

(Maui….my favorite place)


4 thoughts on “Happy Anniversary To Me 4-20-20

  1. First of all, those are some amazing pictures! I was 40 years old before I ever saw a beach and it was in California…lol…but I loved it!
    Secondly, I admire your seeking a positive life. It’s something I’m working on right now and it’s not always graceful, but I heard some things here in your post that I’m relating to in so many, wonderful and beautiful ways. I simply hope I remain in the sunlight of the spirit!

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    • Thank you for that. Life is a journey. We can choose to stay in the negativity of it or find the blessing in every day. It’s also really important to learn to love ourselves again. After all we are all lovable. If I can do it, so can you!! Stay focused. There’s a few books I’d like to recommend to read on your journey to live a positive life. The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho, The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz and The Universe Gas Tour Back by Gabrielle Bernstein. All great books and so helpful in shifting your mindset.

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