Today is chemo #5. Only one more to go after today!! Woo hoo! I’ve been up since 5 this morning. Insomnia. The day before chemo I have to start taking Dexamethasone. It’s a steroid to help with the side effects from chemo and is also taken to prevent any allergic reaction. I have to say, steroids are NOT my favorite. For me taking them causes headaches, sweats, stomach aches, swelling and they really get me wired. However, I’m not going to complain. I’ve actually felt really good this week. I even had the strength to go in to my office. I can’t work but it was so awesome to see everyone and just have a purpose. I thought while I was at my office I’d sit down and go through my emails. It took me a while to remember my password but when I finally did I was overwhelmed to see 852 emails. I went through a few and thought “I’ll deal with these another day”. I try to go to acupuncture the day before chemo. I went yesterday. I can’t begin to tell you how helpful it’s been. It’s so helpful when you’re going through chemo. Acupuncture is not only good for your body but very good for your well being. I highly recommend it to everyone whether you’re going through chemo or not.
As I sat on the couch this morning trying to psyche myself up for chemo , I found myself thinking about my dear friend Samantha Houston. Sam (as we call her) has been my friend for many years. In fact we used to work together. We had so much fun. If you ever have the privilege to meet Sam you will agree that Sam is one of the happiest people you will ever meet in your life. She’s the one person I know that wakes up in the morning with a smile on her face and no matter how challenging her day is, she faces adversity with a positive spirit and a smile on her face. If you ask me, she probably has a smile on her face even while she’s sleeping. Every morning I read a daily affirmation book called “Jesus Calling.” It’s an awesome book filled with positive affirmations along with scriptures to refer to in the bible. Yesterday’s affirmation was to face every challenge leaning on Gods strength rather than complaining. I read the scripture in Phillipians chapter 2 verse 14. It said “do everything without grumbling or questioning”. It reminded me of Sam. So today rather than complain I’m going to face chemo with a positive spirit and regardless of what today’s treatment may bring, I’m going to face the challenge with a smile on my face just like Sam and leaning on the strength that God will bring me today. After all, his plan is bigger than my plan!! My song for today will be The Hustle. For beginners I love the song and it reminds me of Samantha. The happiest and most inspirational person I know. It brings back memories of the fun times we shared working together at the newspaper and it sparks a memory of a time we were on the phone trying to close a deal with a client. We were put on hold and this song came on. We were both so excited and shouted “The Hustle!” We closed the deal that day and we both had a big smile on our face. With that in mind, I will be closing chemo #5 with a big smile on my face listening to The Hustle and thinking about my friend Sam!!! Like Sam I won’t worry, I’ll just be happy!!!