Feathers On A Breeze by Gloria Ann Spencer

If there is anything that inspires me the most are the stories of strong women. Especially strong women who have faced adversity yet never give up. My friend Gloria Ann Spencer wrote this. It’s her own personal story. And what a story at that. As women we have all felt like this but how often are we blessed to have feathers land on us from heaven. I am so inspired by Gloria I felt the need to share her story. Like me Gloria’s Dream is to use her story to make a difference in the lives of others. She made a difference in my life today and I pray after reading this she will make a difference in yours. 
The Musing of a Girl that loves Oak Trees and Feathers

Feathers On A Breeze
I arrived late to a memorial service, and I have to admit, I did so on purpose. I slipped silently in one of the very back pews, on the family’s side. The back pews will surely accept family members, even the one with a piece of paper that states we are no longer a unit. From the back pew I can see the back of my son’s heads, as well as other familiar ones.
I sit STILL with my head held high, and my heart open. I listen to the words being spoken. Words of faith, family, love. WORDS.

Memories of a past life visit me, reminding me how the years and life has passed. Some times of heart break, love, happiness, laughter. A Bitter sweet melancholy begins to lower its self on me.

I was drawn back to the preacher’s words, words of belief, life and memories. I stand STILL with my head bowed with others listening to the closing prayer.

I move out of the chapel quickly without a noise. I hear my name being called out. I stop for a few quick hugs and stories from old friends from the past. They are kind and express their love for me, and let me leave.

My green eyes filled with tears. My mind was questioning, why had my life taken the path it had. I thought of the countless late nights and early morning prayers, I have prayed. Asking for my eyes to see, my ears to hear, my heart to be open and filled with his presence. I requested my mouth to be shut unless it was to be used for his glory. So many nights I hug my body tight requesting for his loving touch, a hug.

As I walked briskly to my car a whirlwind swirls around me, blowing feathers of all sizes and colors around me, out of a mighty oak tree. The wind was bending the branches of the large tree, the feathers kept falling around me. The feathers spun around me brushing against my skin, so many feathers that they would have had to come from multiple birds, so many feathers, small, medium, large, and so many colors, white, brown, and black. The wind was kissing my face and lifting my hair. As I took one step at a time towards my car the feathers continued their dance around me. 

A thought came to my mind that I needed to capture this moment on my cell phone, because no one would believe my description of what had happened. The sensation of my God showering his love on me was breath taking.

I have laughed out loud and said that if God was going to show me the way , he was going to have use a large free standing sign with neon letters, and a flashing red arrow pointing me the way to go. Instead HE used my love of the might oak trees and my child like delighting in finding feathers. Feathers that to me meant a sign from the angels. Recently, I had stopped looking for feathers, my heart had become weary. GOD reached out to me and made me see, and feel HIS love for me. My sign was swirling about me. I will continue to thank God daily, and know that as long as I take one small step, He will continue guide me in the direction to go.

Gloria Ann Spencer 2/3/17

Unlimited Power 3-7-17

A reminder to all women! We have the power within us. So today, put on your Red Jimmy Choos and rock that red dress!! You can persevere through anything. If I can do it…..so can you!!
“Inside each one of us we have unlimited power…

We have persistence, perseverance and POWER!

You just need to tap into it.

Far too many of us live our day to day lives without realizing our potential because we don’t look inside ourselves for the power…

… instead we rely on outside forces out of our control.

So today, look inside.

Tap into your OWN personal power and unleash your greatness into the world!” – Les Brown

The Story Of The Red Shoe 3-6-17

Once upon a time in a far away land there lived a sweet and lovely girl named Amlev. Amlev dreamed of providing a good life for her and her children. 

One day after many years of experiencing hurt, an opportunity arose and Amlev took it! She ran away to another land and began a journey that provided many great experiences. She travelled the world. Explored beautiful beaches, met wonderful people. Some famous and some not so much. She experienced great restaurants, saw famous music bands and met some of the members of the band too. 

One day she woke up. She found herself in a very strange city where men dressed like women, women dressed like men. There were strange people buzzing around her calling her Wemma. Lying next to her was a very odd old man. She realized that maybe, just maybe she was in the wrong dream. She missed her children, her family, her friends and she missed her mother too. She said to herself “I’ve got to get out of this dream!” 

 Amlev ran to Walgreens and bought a box of Calgon in the hopes it would “take her away”. She jumped in the tub. Closed her eyes and said “Calgon take me away!” When she opened her eyes she was still in that same awful dream that was nothing short of a nightmare. 

At that point she knew this required emergency measures. She needed some red shoes. She had lost everything but thank goodness, she hadn’t lost her sense of style too! She knew “when looking for the perfect red shoe…..call Jimmy Choo.” She contacted Jimmy. She said “Jimmy! I need the perfect shoe! I’m in the wrong dream and I have to get out!” Jimmy replied, “I’ll send you the perfect shoe. When you receive them put them on. Tap your heels together and say “I want to go home!” When you do this, you will find yourself in the perfect dream surrounded by the people you love, working your dream job, relaxing on a tropical beach as all of your dreams will be  coming true!”  Amlev placed the order and patiently anticipated the arrival of the “miracle” shoe. She knew that upon their arrival she would finally find herself in the perfect dream providing for herself and children just like she set herself out to do! 

 Finally, the Jimmy Choo Miracle Red Shoe arrived. Amlev took the shoes out of the box and put them on. She closed her eyes, tapped her shoes and when she opened her eyes she was finally in her new dream. She was standing on a stage wearing a red dress and her “miracle” red shoes. She was successful. She was strong. She was a survivor! As she stood in front of the cheering crowd she held her arms in the air and said “I made it! If I can make it, so can you!” 

If you’re reading this today and find your yourself in a challenging situation that feels more like a bad dream. Remember……

“Home is knowing. Knowing your mind, knowing your heart, knowing your courage. If we know ourselves, we’re always home, anywhere.” – Glinda The Good Witch (The Wizard Of Oz)

Know your courage. Put on your red shoes and you can go anywhere!

Happy Anniversary To Me 3-4-17

Today is my anniversary! Most people celebrate their wedding anniversary, sometimes their anniversary at being at job, etc. I celebrate my sobriety anniversary. For me it’s a celebration of the night god saved my life. Every year I post the story of my last drunk. A reminder of a dark time in my life. Today I’m not going to do that. I’d like to focus on something different or rather the person who touched my life and made a difference. 
As you all know I am a recovered alcoholic. I am celebrating 15 years of sobriety today. My last drunk was 3 fifths, a half gallon of whiskey and a bottle of wine. I cut my face, my arms, my legs and I burned off my eyelashes on one of my eyes. All this in 48 hours. What can I say? I like to go all out. Lol. My best friend and attorney, along w the help of my parents got me in to rehab a few days later. Prior to this I had gone through a year long challenging divorce w my ex husband. Of course that’s another story. I used alcohol as a way to escape the reality of a very challenging life. I entered rehab with the thought I was not an alcoholic rather an abuser. Of course I was in complete denial and couldn’t imagine calling myself an alcoholic. After all, I wasn’t homeless, I was always dressed nice and I was “woman of the Year” in my beta group. 

I met a woman in my group who was a corporate executive for Microsoft. She was successful, beautiful, dressed to the nines and…..she was an alcoholic. Hard to believe. She didn’t fit the stereotype we all have of an alcoholic. I had been in treatment for 7 days and was at my group. This woman was sharing her story. As I listened to this woman speak of her trials with alcohol I found myself resonating with her story. I’ll never forget she was wearing a beautiful creme colored pantsuit. Everything about her was spot on. She looked like she had stepped out of a magazine. As she shared her story I found myself resonating with some of the embarrassing things she had done while drinking and when she said “I’m an alcoholic” everything clicked. It was that “AHA” moment!! I blurted out “I’ve done that…….Am I an alcoholic?!” Tada! Welcome to treatment. 
It was that day I made the decision to accept I was an alcoholic and it was the impact that woman had when she shared that changed my life forever. I’m telling you this because we can be that woman too. We all have a story and we all have the ability to share our stories with others. Sometimes it’s that crappy, humiliating story that is an inspiration or hope for someone else. 

It’s funny I barely remember that woman’s face but I remember her creme colored suit. She was everything I wanted to be. She was courageous, she was honest, she was smart, successful and she was just like me. She inspired me to believe if she can do it, then so can I. I’ve never seen this woman again but the impact she had on my life lives in me forever. I want to be that person for someone else which is why I became a member of the John Maxwell Team. Their mission is to add value to the lives of others and make a difference. That is what I am striving to do. So today as I celebrate 15 years of sobriety I also celebrate the fact that alcoholism or even the events that led up to my recovery may be a part of my story but it’s not my story today. Today I am a survivor and I’m striving to make a difference. 

Crushed? Remember Psalm 34:18

The Abuse Expose' with Secret Angel

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Have you ever felt crushed…
and totally beyond repair…
with the weight of the world…
pulling you down in despair.
Well I know how this feels…
for I have been crushed before…
not even realizing I needed rescuing…
till God exposed abuse and more.
For when victims are being crushed…
with abuse and adultery by those we love…
sometime we can’t see the truth…
till God intervenes from above.

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How To Be Single 2-21-17

I watched the movie How To Be Single the other day. It’s a great movie starring Dakota Johnson and Rebel Wilson. The movie is about…..well you get it, how to be single. 

I’ve been single for a year and a half. It’s the longest I’ve ever been single in my entire adult life. However, I have to admit, while it’s been lonely, being single has allowed me the opportunity to really become comfortable with my three new best friends. Me, Myself and I. I’ve become rather comfortable doing things alone. I’ve travelled alone. Had dinner alone. Gone to movies alone. What I’ve discovered is I know longer feel the need to settle for “Mr. Right Now” just for the sake of not being alone. 

At the end of the movie, Dakota’s character, Alice discovers this same thing. The scene of her standing alone at the top of a mountain on a hiking trip is awesome. She’s finally doing something she always wanted to do and she’s doing it alone. She recites a quote at the end of the movie. I loved it so much I decided to write it down word for word to refer to during this single moment in my life. A moment in time I’ll never get back to just be alone and cherish the time to just be me. My desire isn’t exactly to be standing at the top of a mountain while on a hiking trip but hiking on the sandy beaches of somewhere tropical might be. The point is, if you’re single cherish the moment to finally be able to do the things you always wanted to do. No strings attached. Just Do It. The quote below is from the movie and I think it’s worth noting. 

How to be single

The time we have to be single is really the time we have to get good at being alone. 

But how good at being Alone do we really want to be. Isn’t there a danger we will get so good at being single. So set in our ways we will miss out on the chance to be w somebody great 

Some people take baby steps to settle down. Some people refuse to settle at all. Sometimes it’s not statistics. It’s just kinda strange. Sometimes just because it is over it doesn’t mean the love ends. 

The thing about being single is you should cherish it. Because in a week or a lifetime of being alone you may only get one moment. One moment when you’re not tied up in a relationship with anyone. A parent, a pet, a sibling. One moment when you stand on your own. Really truly single. And then it’s gone.