Can We Still Be Friends? 7-29-20

It’s no secret my passion in life is to advocate for the homeless in America. While my heart goes out to many causes including black lives matter, all lives matter, Cancer, abuse….it’s the homeless epidemic in this nation that really pulls at my heart strings. We are supposedly the richest nation in the world, yet why is it that anyone is homeless in America. This covid thing has really bothered me. Mainly because while we are so busy fighting with each other about which political party is right, we fail to think about the people who are homeless or the people who will soon be kicked out of their home due to lack of work and money because both parties can’t get their shit together and find a solution to this pandemic. I don’t care which party is right or wrong. I think it’s time for everyone to recognize the little people who are caught in the middle of this fighting and will soon be left living in the streets. These are real People just trying to make a living. No stocks, no investments, just your average Joe trying to get by!

I read this article about this young boy named Theo. He’s 7 years old and has been homeless since he was born. His mom seems a bit off but I’m not judging. All I know is there is absolutely no reason for this little boy to spend his life living in a tent. I can’t even imagine. What makes this story even more heart wrenching is the parents are in the midst of a custody battle during a pandemic and Theo is caught in the middle. Unbelievable. Gosh this just made my stomach sick and I have to be honest it made me cry. I cried for this little boy and for the millions of people in America who are facing homelessness with young children because we have a bunch of political feuds going on. And I’m not talking just politicians. It’s everyone of us who find ourselves fighting on Social Media. How pathetic.

The president based his entire campaign on “Making America Great Again”. I’m sorry to disappoint but based on the homelessness in the USA along with increased racism and fighting, riots, protests, bullying…I’m not sure it was ever that great to begin with and in my opinion it sure as hell hasn’t gotten “Greater”. Yell at me if you want. Attack me with comments I don’t care. My heart is in the right place and as far as my passion about ending homelessness one day, that will always be a dream of mine. I am just so done with this political chaos. I just wish it would all stop. And who knows maybe as a country we can put our opinions aside and begin coming together to find a solution to bringing peace and togetherness in this nation. A nation where we help each other. Respect one another and learn to agree to disagree if only for the sake of doing the right thing not only for ourselves but for others.

My nephew will be 7 next month. I couldn’t even imagine my sweet little Kai having to live in a flipping tent because are nation isn’t that great! That’s my opinion and my opinion only.

So how about this. We may not always agree but in the words of Todd Rundgren “we can’t play this game anymore but can we still be friends?”

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Read this article about Theo. If you don’t shed a tear I’d be surprised.

Stop. Look. Listen 6-17-20

Stop! Look! Listen! The universe is always speaking to us.

I saw this beautiful rainbow tonight. So beautiful I got out of my car to take a picture. As I was taking the picture I noticed the stop sign. At the same time my phone buzzed with a reminder I have on my phone to buzz me throughout the day as a reminder “Something Wonderful Is About To Happen”. I have this reminder because life happens sometimes. Life can feel
Super crazy. For me this is a great reminder to always expect something wonderful.

Just when things get a little overwhelming, the universe steps in causing me to stop, look and the next thing I know my phone buzzes and causes me to listen. At that moment I am reminded “Something Wonderful Is About To Happen”.

Tonight it was a beautiful rainbow. Life is good and the good news is The Universe Has My Back always providing me with something wonderful. I just have to Stop, Look and Listen.

Dear 2020 6-4-20

Dear 2020:

You suck! January started with hopes of a fun new year. I was super excited. Then March rolled around. Shut downs, pandemics and quarantines have been absolutely draining. I have tried my best to adapt to the situation at hand. I’ve learned many things along the way. I’ve become an office helper. I’ll be honest, office work hasn’t been my gig but I’ve tried my best. I have become a hair colorist, a manicurist and pedicurist and most recently I’ve become a nurse learning to give my mom shots. I’m an errand girl, an Uber Driver and a Gardner. I admit it!!! I suck at it all. My memory loss has caused me to be a horrible office helper. And while I’m awesome at investigating doing nails is not my thing. I sanded my nails with a hand sander and now they won’t grow back. I’m afraid of needles so nursing has been a catastrophe and tonight when I colored my moms hair I quickly realized a hair stylist I am not. My moms neck and face were covered in hair dye. I think she might blow a popsicle stand when she sees herself in the mirror and I have to break the news. “No! These aren’t age spots!” Prayers greatly appreciated. 🙏🏻

Today is June 4th. It’s summer for goodness sakes. I want to travel. I want to go to the beach. I want to do lunch and I want to go dancing! At a club with tons of people. So 2020….Let’s make a deal. Let the hair and nails salons open, let office people return to work and let’s agree to allow the last six months of 2020 to get back to normal. I need a VACA ASAP!!

Coloring my hair
Uber Driver
Office Helper
Wearing a mask
I need a vaca!!!

Don’t Take Things Personally 4-28-20

A friend of mine was set to get married on April 4th at Dodger Stadium. He had finally found the love of his life or so he thought.

The coronavirus happened as well as the shutdown in California. He was laid off from his job and when he was, his fiancé dumped him. Her reason. “You have no job”. Wow! Well he’s been brooding and is naturally devastated. While my heart goes out to him I managed to tell him this woman clearly wasn’t the love of his life. Or better, he wasn’t hers.

I got a sappy text today from him. His ex fiancé hasn’t even bothered to contact him. In her eyes, he’s a loser. In my eyes, well she’s a bitch! But it’s none of my business. My reply was the following. Don’t take things personally. My motto if your partner can’t love you in the bad times……NEXT!!! We all need a little reminder. Whatever happens….don’t take it personally. You’ll only hurt yourself if you do.

“Whatever happens around you, don’t take it personally… Nothing other people do is because of you. It is because of themselves. All people live in their own dream, in their own mind; they are in a completely different world from the one we live in. When we take something personally, we make the assumption that they know what is in our world, and we try to impose our world on their world.

Even when a situation seems so personal, even if others insult you directly, it has nothing to do with you. What they say, what they do, and the opinions they give are according to the agreements they have in their own minds…Taking things personally makes you easy prey for these predators, the black magicians. They can hook you easily with one little opinion and feed you whatever poison they want, and because you take it personally, you eat it up….

But if you do not take it personally, you are immune in the middle of hell. Immunity in the middle of hell is the gift of this agreement.”

Playing Mind Games 4-28-20

Playing Mind Games
BY MADISYN TAYLOR

Life should not be lived through a series of mind games, but from truth and looking deep within.For better or worse, many people have been raised to believe that communicating in an honest and open way will not get them what they want. They have learned, instead, to play mind games or go on power trips in the service of their ego’s agenda. People stuck in this outmoded and inefficient style of communication can be trying at best and downright destructive at worst. We may get caught up in thinking we have to play the same games in order to defend ourselves, but that will only lead us deeper into confusion and conflict. The best way to handle people like this is to be clear and honest with them. 

As with all relationships and situations in our lives, we must look within for both the source of our difficulties and the solution. Reacting to the situation by getting upset will only entrench us more deeply in the undesirable relationship. Only by disengaging, becoming still, and going within can we begin to see what has hooked us into the mess in the first place. We will most likely find unprocessed emotions that we can finally fully feel and release into the stillness we find in meditation. The more we are able to do this, the less we will be bothered by the other person’s dramas and the more we will be free to respond in a new way. In the light of our new awareness, the situation will untangle itself and we will slowly break free. 

Whenever people come into our lives, they have come for a reason, to show us something about ourselves that we have not been able to see. When unhealthy people try to hook us into their patterns with mind games and power trips, we can remind ourselves that we have something to learn here and that a part of us is calling out for healing. This takes the focus off the troubling individual and puts it back on us, giving us the opportunity to change the situation from the inside out.

Sunrise in Quincy. I took this photo on my walk.

The Sound Of Peace 4-21-20

Those of you who grew up in a small town can relate to this. When I was a kid, my favorite part of waking up in the morning was waking up to the sound of chirping birds outside. As a young kid, it was so peaceful and inviting. In those days, I could hear the sound of lawn mowers as our neighbors would be outside mowing their lawn. I suspect they would do this early before the temperatures would rise to often times over 100 degrees. I would just lie in my bed listening to the birds singing before I got up. For me, it was my favorite part of the day.

I opened my window last night. The weather here is really changing. Summer is right around the corner. I woke up and was greeted by the chirping birds outside. Just like I was a kid I felt a sense of peace. I also felt a sense of nostalgia missing the days when I was a kid. Life was good. My only worry was what fun I was going to have that day.

I love city living and I’ll be honest, I miss the city quite a bit. However, in the city you wake up to the sounds of sirens or honking from all the traffic outside. Here….not so much. I do hear the sounds of cars passing by heading to work but I also here the sound of all the birds singing loudly. To me that’s peace. I have to say, I really love it here. Country living…..it’s awesome when you take a few minutes to recognize the blessing. For me it comes in the form of birds chirping outside my window.

I took this picture of a pheasant in my brothers organic apple orchard

Positive Vibes 4-21-20

Good morning. My beautiful cousin surprised me the other day by mailing me a “bottle” of positive vibes and good juju the other day. I received them with so much love. After all, she’s my best friend in the whole world. She’s like a sister to me. I love her so much. I loved her thoughtful gift so much I was prompted to share my “bottle of positive vibes and good juju” with others today. I hope you receive my gift with the same gratitude I did the day I received mine. Have a great day 💫❤️

Happy Anniversary To Me 4-20-20

Today is my sixth month anniversary. Six months ago, I was on my walk. It was Sunday. I was praying that day asking god to intercede in my life and help me to land on my feet again spiritually, emotionally and physically. I was so tired of the anxiety, depression, PTSD, a negative mindset as well as the constant fear and worry that had taken control of my life.

This coming May will be five years that I returned from San Francisco. I’m embarrassed to admit that I’ve isolated myself in my room ever since. Life happens sometimes. Challenges arise, traumatic experiences happen. Health problems, relationship problems, job loss, finances…..Life as we knew it can change in a New York minute.

That Sunday, I made the decision to take my life back. I won’t bore you with the details. Some things are just meant to stay private. However, I will share I have been working diligently to take control of my mind, body and soul and spirit everyday. The result….I’m happy again. I love life again….and I’m grateful. I have a whole new perspective. I see the blessings in all things even at a time when we are all forced to be in isolation. I’m learning every day to create a better me. You too can create a better you the minute you decide to take control of your life. Good times will happen as will bad. Happy times will happen as will sad. It’s how we choose to react to every situation. Personally, I chose to react poorly.

Six months ago, I chose peace, love, serenity, joy, health, family, but more importantly life! I choose to live my life in a state of gratitude opposed to depression. It’s been six months ago today that I prayed asking God for help. He heard me that day because today is my anniversary and every day I find myself looking forward to the day as well as what the future will be that is right in front me. With any luck, the light that shines in my life will exude and shine brightly on those I encounter everyday. Life is good! It always was. I just failed to recognize it.

(Maui….my favorite place)

Let The Sunshine In 4-14-20

The Number One Offender

Resentment is the “number one” offender. It destroys more people than anything else. From it stems all forms of spiritual disease, mental and physical illness. We become spiritually sick.

As we look at ourselves, we can easily see resentment as a question of “getting even” for a wrong done to “me.” If we continue to relive old hurts, it is a resentment that bars the sunlight from our soul. If we continue to relive hurts and hates, we will only hurt and hate ourselves. We must let go of resentments; Clearly, we cannot afford them. Let go and let the sunshine in.

(This Photo was taken at a hotel lobby I was at in Spokane, Wa)